In the shape of.....

Hey bloggers. It's Thursday morning approximately 12:03 am. Its been a long time since the last post. I graduated, went to greece, cut my REAL hair, and hopefully going to get a new job. I'm starting college soon. Its the best feeling in the world knowing i can be anything i want to be. I feel like moving a mountain right now. =] I'm working on my portfilio tho.... I got some new ideas of a concentration. It's my little summer project. I got this thing in the mail some pageant thing an i think i mite actually do it but idk's right now gotta run it through the commitee.

Though everything in my life is moving in the positive direction there is somethings that have somewhat fallen off the top of my truck. For example, since i've graduated i've been soooo busy i haven't hung out with my cousin/brother and he is my best friend and apparently he feels as if i have no time for him anymore.... it hurts me like a knife. My bestie (ashante) also has similar feels. So does my aunt and my dad and my stepmom the list goes on........... I just sit an think how people are so upset and mad at me because i have no time for them at the time that they want me to be there. But the thing thats going on in my mind is i'm a good friend i will always be there im no longer moving so for right now im busy focusing on me and my future when im done figuring that out i will be there for the many people who are pulling me at the arms from different directions. But the sad thing is I AM ONLY ONE PERSON. I wish i could jump everytime someone wanted me but the reality is I can't. I am only Jawanna, one person. I hope people remember that.

(I am not saying i was right for not hanging out with you but it seems whenever you wanted to hang out i was suppose to jump up an come over. That's not realistic. I dont understand why you think were going to stop being friends because we havent hung out as much. I've been friends with you for how long??? we are not just going to stop being frineds. Things happen. We get busy. But we still have the summer and were going to the same college. Most of my other friends are leaving the state like im never going to see them again kinda thing but you im going to see. So i hope you understand why i was busy. You are going to be mad for a while but eventually you'll understand like how i now understand why you were upset. You are a good freind. I hope that never changes. Though that nite i saw a different side of you and it's funny because i lost sleep over it and stopped eating but obvisously you didnt care how i felt because you were so quick to not want to be freinds anymore which hurt like a bitch but that's life and things happen soo.)


Meaningful book title that touched my soul....
Don't Sweat the Small Stuff... and It's All Small Stuff
- Richard Carlson

....Así es la vida


.peace.☮
.love.♥
.happyness.=]
.allthatgoodstuff. =P

-Jay.Tish